overdrive

It is like I have been running in overdrive for months (okay a year or more) now. Constantly on the move, and the moment I stop is when the wheels start spinning in my head and I can't shut down to even sleep. It could be the stress of being a mother or the anxiety of childhood cancer. Add on top of that the millions of ideas I have when my mind is buzzing as I lie in bed unable to sleep, but then the let down of not even having the energy to start them. This past week the realization of being in overdrive has hit me. I haven't realized how bad I needed to do something for me. I went and got a massage. I focused on just breathing in and out. I could feel the stress melting off me. I also made an appointment to see a doctor for my anxiety. There are a million reasons I delayed doing this. Too many to list. I have been running on adrenaline for too long. This week I have taken a huge step back to realize what is the most important. Once again simplifying life. I'm thankful for a husband who has balanced out some of the overdrive and taken the kids so I could just focus on some stress relief for a few hours. The unwinding is just want I needed. I like reminders in life that get us back on course.