sometimes you have to look back

I finally downloaded pictures off my memory card onto the computer. Who cries when they do that? I was a mess. Most of my days are good but tears come so easy these days. listening to people talk at church, telling our story, thinking back, going to an event where you feel like your child is an alien because of her bald head and you just want to run away crying, when your holding a scared baby, when you go to dinner with another mom who is going through hard times, when you read other cancer stories, when you find pictures of those curly cues, when you see your child walk again, when your running a 5K for an angel, when your child misses the firework display. Here are just a few pictures I couldn't stop looking at. I would give anything to go back to these day. My heart was so full this year at Christmas. I was so content with life. It was soon after this that the nightmare all began.

This night was so special.
She won the hearts of so many at the event.
 I didn't stop smiling

Sweet girl and all her curls. I miss those curls

Christmas Morning 2012