Rock-A-Bye- Baby

Rocking my sweet girl again for 4 nights in a row. She's fine during the day but coughs all night. I'm sure its something that will work out soon. I wonder when she will be too big and I can't rock her anymore. I can't even think about that. I remember back 4 years ago...when I spent a lot of hours in that brown rocking chair nursing Presley. My mind would wonder. I would think "I wonder how many woman are up right now doing the exact same thing I'm doing..nursing a baby". Nursing was hard those first few months and knowing others were doing it gave me so much comfort. Today my mind did the same thing. "I wonder how many caner moms were rocking a sick baby". Too many. I cried. This time I could actually picture real people and read kids that I knew that night mom was rocking to sleep. Jen and Ava. Lara and Brylee. Stephanie and Emerson. I cried hard. It's one thing to wonder and never know. It's another to think of all those children who are suffering. But like when I was nursing I find so much comfort in others doing what I'm doing. I know I'm not alone. It give me so much strength and courage to keep fighting and to keep my chin high. My heart is broken but full from these caner buddies. My cancer mom buddies fill a big whole in my heart. They get this crazy life I live. They are living my life. I spend so much time rocking that little girl, thankful for that time. I use to get so upset and so tired. Today I take that opportunity knowing one day she will be too big :( not looking forward to that day.